- Vacation is a verb
- It is also a skill with varying levels of proficiency.
During the school year I want time, I beg for time, and borrow and steal for time. Summer days like today I have the time, and don’t know what to do with it. Perhaps it’s the lack of urgency. Also it’s the overwhelming list of things that I could do -- some would just be fun (like golfing), others could improve my productivity in the future (plan a unit! script a video!), and others are basically useless (uh, blogging).
On school days or weekends, the limits of time and freedom will fence me in and prevent this feeling. It’s not a bad feeling, really. Good things might come from this, like an appreciation for my working life, and a general contentment with life.
I started writing this post at an air-conditioned Panera. I was feeling nervous, uncertain, fearful of failure. That was back in July before my vacation was halfway through.* I had promised myself to make more videos during the summer, and really feel ready with the content ... but I could not bring myself to do that. Made plenty of excuses, chose to read books or scan the Tweetdeck, replaced the downstairs toilet, waged war on a meme, shopped at IKEA and Home Depot too many times, and captured a bunch of Pidgeys and Rattatas....
Recently I looped back around again, and I can accept Douglas Adams' words of wisdom --------->
Here is the kicker: We always feel this way!
- "Summer vacation is too short."
- "My classroom won't be ready."
- "I don't have enough good ideas to engage my students."
- "I might forget how to talk without swearing."*
Meanwhile let me enjoy some hours of summer -- people-watching, Pokemon-catching, dog-walking, big-idea-thinking, and pondering the dumpster fire of American politics.
* Actually that one is legitimate. Start a 12-step program or whatever it takes now. That could be real trouble.